Why I Built Polyamorytracker (And Why You’ll Want to Stay)

Me going deep—not to get lost in turmoil, but to come out way more solid than a rock and master Emotional Intelligence.

From broken patterns to mastery: why I created Polyamorytracker as a space to confront the truths about love, desire, and the self — without masks, without tradition, without apology.

INTRO

Every pattern has a root. Mine was hidden for years, buried beneath charm, passion, and fleeting connections that always ended too fast. The more I chased resolution in women, the more the same cycle replayed itself — until I stopped and turned inward.

I tore apart my own wiring. Belief systems that chained me, or kept me behind. The unconscious reflexes that kept me reactive instead of grounded. Piece by piece, I rewrote them — stubbornly, deliberately — until detachment became natural, until calm was not an act but my state.

That process transformed me. Stronger. Sharper. Fully centered in my own presence. A man no longer controlled by old patterns, but upgraded into something entirely different: unbothered, emotionally dangerous, rooted in abundance.

Through countless encounters — lovers, fleeting affairs, deeper bonds— I learned how women behave when faced with confidence, how desire collides with fear, how attachment is born in silence as much as in chaos. What looked like randomness revealed itself as patterned psychology: subconscious needs, fears, belief systems all colliding in relationships.

This is why Polyamorytracker exists. Not to repeat safe advice, but to strip away illusion. To expose the undercurrents of psychology, sex, and human connection. To challenge traditions that no longer serve us. To guide men — and women — into versions of themselves that are freer, wilder, and unshakably grounded & REAL.

This blog is not entertainment. It is a mirror, a compass, and a weapon.

Why Polyamory Tracker?

Most relationship advice lives on the surface. It teaches rules, strategies, hacks — but never reaches the deeper machinery that drives human desire. What I’ve seen, again and again, is that relationships collapse not because people lack tactics, but because they lack mastery of themselves.

Polyamorytracker is my response to that. A place where the conversation shifts from manipulation to transformation. Where we speak not of chasing, but of becoming. Where jealousy, chaos, and attachment aren’t treated as problems to eliminate, but as signals to interpret.

This platform exists to break stigma, to question tradition, to push beyond the false safety of outdated models like compulsory monogamy. It exists to help men stop bleeding energy into neediness, to help women stop burying their desire under fear, and to give anyone willing to step into the fire the tools to walk out transformed.

Here, nothing is off limits. Psychology, sex, self-mastery, attraction, detachment, intimacy, freedom. The topics others avoid are the very ground we stand on.

What You’ll Find Here

Every post will carry three elements:

  • Raw Experience. Stories drawn from real encounters — the successes, the mistakes, the lessons learned in the fire of lived relationships.
  • Psychological Depth. Unpacking the subconscious drivers of attraction, the hidden fears, the patterns that replay until they are cut at the root.
  • Practical Direction. Tools and insights you can act on immediately — not to control others, but to master yourself.

Expect writing that is articulate, unfiltered, and deliberately triggering. Expect to question what you thought you knew. Expect awareness that feels like both a wound and a cure.

This is not a library of advice. It is a field manual for transformation.

Who This Is For

This is for the man who feels himself repeating the same endings, no matter the woman.

This is for the woman who senses her attraction bending toward chaos and wonders why stability is never enough.
This is for anyone unafraid to step outside tradition and examine themselves without disguise.

The readers I write for are not casual. They are educated, perceptive, ambitious — people with resources, with curiosity, with the courage to confront what most avoid. They are professionals, creators, explorers. People who know that pleasure and power are intertwined, and who are willing to invest in becoming more than they were yesterday.

If you are content with surface-level answers, this space will feel uncomfortable. If you are ready for depth, it will feel like oxygen.

Who I Am

I am not a coach reciting theories. I am a man who lived the cycles, broke them, and rebuilt himself. Living in Asia, building businesses and more; staying active, curious, stubborn, and a risk-taker—discovering the world while mastering the inner one.

I am playful, calm, centered, unbothered—not by "force", but by nature. I adapt, and do it well, like a bukalemon; you might see me change colors, but never the flesh beneath the skin. I have been with many women, studied their patterns, and in that process, revealed my own. I've been with over a hundred women—and a large portion of them weren't one-night stands, but lovers who returned, again and again, for many nights of intimacy, sex, and everything unspoken. I have known jealousy, detachment, obsession, and freedom — and I have turned each into data, each into strength.

I believe in abundance, in evolution, in never being chained to the past. Life, to me, is not meant to be endured but explored — fearlessly, joyfully, with relentless curiosity.

Polyamorytracker is not about me alone. It is about using my path as a mirror for yours. About creating a community of those who refuse to settle for mediocrity in love or in life. About tracking the truths of polyamory — not as an abstract concept, but as a lived, burning reality.

The Takeaway

Polyamory is not freedom to escape yourself — it is the demand to master yourself so completely that freedom becomes your natural state.

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